too much caffine

i had forgotten
just how much i love coffee
and riding my bike
after having five cups of coffee
really fast
down dark empty streets
yes
im twitching
its better than being drunk
this manic hyper buzz
the only thing that worries me
are the ocassional bright blue shiny blinky things...
thats kinda odd
but im sure il be ok
soon

i have concluded as of today
that i need to get back on the
reading my readings bandwagon
cause reading one law case
took about 3 hours
that was without any real procrastination
just an obscene amount of head scratching
and rereading
i need to learn this jargon
and fast
granted
i knew and know that case back to front now
and my note in there
in purple thank you
are excellent for going back over
but hell
i dont have the time to do this every week

in other news
i have streamlined my schedule
i now have only the three classes
ONE internship, now three days a week
one mentorship and the silkscreening
this seems like it might be managable
if i can ever manage to get my weekends under control
this week...
ive only got a potluck friday
dodgeball field trip satuday morning
some party thing saturday night
bike polo sunday morning
and mcD's urban golf protest sunday night
i think... that may be a bit much
i dont know

i am putting this here
lest i forget

http://studenthome.nku.edu/~russelljo/flash/dudefalling.swf

you should all watch it
because it is good.

its a funny thing
talking to folks
you havent seen in more than a year
but have known since sayyyyy...
kindergarden?
the phone rings
and the voice is familiar...
but the brain says no
wound up talking for an hour almost
catching up
talking about shit thats never really come up
all of a sudden we're all grown up
and dealing with shit
like friends and exes getting married
having freaking children
and here both of us are
looking around
wondering if theres going to be anyone left
i think we may have to make one of those pacts

ok
this coffee is not condusive to typing
and i have a ton of short films to watch for tomorrow
isnt that tragic?
having to watch movies for work?
i think i could get used to this writing for a magazine thing
i dont know that it would pay what i really want
but hell
at the moment
its pretty freakin sweet.

how did i forget

i cant belive i didnt subject you to this...


and in the spirit of International Talk Like a Pirate Day
courtesy of Lucky...

http://loadingreadyrun.com/showmovie.php?x=480&y=360&url=talklikepirate.mov

splitting

im working hard here
to split myself off
into two seperate people
the one who gets their readings done for class
who dips toes and dives in
to that world of academia
while at the same time
allowing my clone my copy my counterpart
to continue on with the life ive laid out
but its not working

i havent the time to keep up
nor the will
nor the energy
to keep with four far flung groups of friends
who fail to converge
though the overlap would be fearful
my time at least could come at a better bargain

ive printed out all the papers for one class
searched them out
rolled through a ream of paper
now i just have to organize them
this organization obsession
slows me down so
yet
without it
i feel lost adrift
uncertainty leading to further delay
so i may as well get out that hole punch
and bind these bastards.

i want my photos from this week past
the insanity of parties from thursday though
again i see
i cant keep this up
but next week
is the dodgeball excursion
how can i not go?
how can i miss it?
as it is
man man will play without me dancing in the front row
theres neither money nor time for such extravagance

so to the floor i go
to sit and slice
and clip and fold
then on to those readings
i barely have hope of starting

god
how pessimistic
i got 8 hours of sleep
i am invincible again
oh.
and my hair?
can you say... mohawk?