still trying to shake it

its raning again
with the unseasonal early spring coldness to back it up
making it hard to decide
to go out there
my bike is waiting downstairs
but i have a nice warm sweater to wear up here

last night i sat and watched
that 9/11 movie posted yesterday
glued horror filled
as facts and files emerged
its taken this long
for me to be able to watch the towers fall
and to think about it
rather than just react
but they fell straight down
collapsed onto themselves
why

the more i think
the less secure i feel here
i realize how little i know of whats happening
in the real world
politically

so il drink my coffee like i always do
and wonder if anyone was watching me
watching that movie
if im on some list now
and if my vote will be counted

even if i dont want to go out
into the rain and wind of today
i dont want to sit here all alone
and keep thinking

something for your eyes

just watch this.






then we can talk.