coping

an infestation of inflating frogs in my skull.
im sorry
but thats how it feels
right now
my head turned into a barometer again
i want to be off this stuff
not depending on popping one pill or another
just to be able to breathe
just to be able to see straight
but apparently
today is not the day to set myself free
so dosed i am
sudafed and caffine
sloshing in my veins

i cant decide
if i need more coffee or perhaps water will do
ive been sitting for too long
alternating between one chair and the other
my knees suffer more
staying still
than ever they do pedaling

too many projects have piled up at me
a sudden thing
with summer near ending
i realize classes will start soon
but yet my mind is still on the summer time
i need to shore things up
set them rolling
for when i have less time
less mind
to direct at such things
though always ive done better with less
the more constraint
the further my mind is willing to reach
the more my body is willing to suffer
pull through and cope.

til then